You’ve left your fingerprints all over everything that was solely mine before you came. Now I can’t attend the yearly festival without remembering what it was like to walk it with you, or how you picked out the perfect pair of earrings for me, or shared a lemonade. All my favorite things are smudged with the impression of you. Haunting me.
Why did I let you in?
And once you broke my heart,
Why did I let another enter where only you had made sparks?
So that he too could leave
My heart bruised.
I should have kept my heart to myself.
I should not have fallen for the subtle seduction
Let the swooning and sighing pass me by;
Because all I’m left with now
is an empty heart, well-decorated with scars.
12-30-11
The remedy for heartaches:
Make long lists of nothing
And everything
Make sure to smile
Even at the smallest things
At strangers, at yourself
Write until your hands tire
Pour your soul out onto pages
Upon pages.
Drown your sorrow in music
In your favorite songs
Mute your thoughts
With the melody of life.
Bathe in silence and the absence
Of what was once there
But cleanse yourself
With the reassurance of
Another tomorrow.
Don’t forget to breathe.
Take my heart
Watch it shatter
Turn my beating heart
Into dark matter
Break my wave
Let me see
That when I was with you
...
The remedy for heartaches:
Make long lists of nothing
And everything
Make sure to smile
Even at the smallest things
At strangers, at yourself
...
So random thoughts while listening to my coworkers talk about...
“Spring” - Nessa-ninona